Commitments & Changes

On the road to financial security – Week 1:

I canceled our cable, internet and phone line today – it’s effective as of Friday. It was a little bit liberating and a little bit scary all at once. I’m waiting for my mind to be blown in the “life without 859 channels and 24/7 internet access” way, if you know what I mean. Our (my) plan is to get to the internet via our iPhones – use them as Hot Spots – and upgrade our monthly data usage since we won’t be hopping onto our Wi-Fi every time we’re home, saving our data usage, since it no longer exists. So we won’t be completely without access to the outside world. But it’ll be different and I’m sure challenging. But I think we’ll survive.

I’ve wanted to do this for years. But only until now, was it actually a necessity. Without getting too detailed in our financial situation, now’s the time that we really need the extra $144-$150/month, so it has to be done. Maternity leave (unpaid, I might add…) is coming up in a short 10 weeks (eek!! {Did you read that, Nick? 10 WEEKS! Gosh, it seems so much closer when it’s actually written out like that…}), we’ll be feeding/insuring/diapering another family member, we already have one family member to feed/insure/diaper/send to the babysitter that we didn’t have last time I was on (unpaid) maternity leave and the fall, albeit my favorite time of year, marks the beginning of the end of Nick’s “busy” season – translation? Not as much money coming in. So. All that combined together equals high stress levels due to finances – and that’s one thing I don’t want to have to worry about this time around…

I want to make a commitment to myself, my family and this blog, that we’re really going to do the things that we say we’re going to do every year around this time, whether or not there’s a little one on the way. So I’m thinking that putting it out here for me and others to see, will make me more accountable and I’ll better stick to my guns about the changes I want to make for my family and I. But I need do this one thing at a time, unlike everything else that I do, instead of jumping all in, getting overwhelmed and completely quitting.

This week, I canceled Comcast.

Next week, I will start canning the abundance of basil and tomatoes we have growing in our yard to live off of in the winter.

Wish me luck!!

Beautiful days

I don’t think I mentioned it yet, but Nana and Granddad are here!! They arrived safely about 2 weeks ago and have been a great help since stepping foot in the US. Will is over the moon to spend time with them and show them all his tricks. Some days, I don’t even get a “hello” when I get home from work because now it’s all about Nana and Granddad – Mommy and Daddy only come into play when he’s in one of his “moods”. Anywho, it’s been great – we’ve done some fun things and have had a lot of time to just spend good, quality time together. I will elaborate more in future posts (with more pics, of course!) but for now, it’s on to this past weekend.

Yesterday morning I was told (in mid-conversation, mind you) how pretty I look when I’m pregnant and that pregnancy looks really good on me! The woman (who I work with) that told me this then went on to say that my face just looks lovely and I look so happy. She also said that she thinks of me as a “beautiful baby-making machine” (she tells me often how beautiful she thinks William is – hence the “beautiful baby-making machine” comment). She said I should make sure to take pictures of myself now so I have them. How nice!? I wanted to hug her! I should have hugged her! Especially considering that this particular morning I took the bold (read: not-so-smart) step of weighing myself before getting in the shower and realized I put on 6 lbs. in the last week…Eek! Needless to say, I have been feeling “large and in-charge” since then…So hearing this really made my day – couple that with fall-like weather (again!) and I was one happy mama!! I kept saying all day “it’s going to be a beautiful day!!”

And speaking of beautiful, we had a beautiful weekend with Pete and Kath and I got some great shots. I’m only uploading the ones from my phone since the ones on my SLR are, well, still on my SLR, but fear not! they will come off – as yesterday was also the day that I started my online photography class! Wahoo! Yesterday really was a beautiful day!

Be prepared to gaze over some much-more-professional-looking pictures in the weeks to come as I complete my (much-needed & super-anticipated) Flying Photo School course.

Saturday we took Nana and Granddad to the Phillies game, but before we hit the game, we met some friends in the city for lunch. There is no other way to describe the chaos that ensues when trying to have lunch in a public place with a rambunctious toddler other than as a complete debacle. I think we must have passed that child back and forth (over and under the table) 100 times – easily.

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Games with Uncle Steve (anything to keep this child entertained!).lunchcollage2

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Because this child was in desperate need of a N-A-P by the time we got to the game, Nick and I spent the first hour or so doing laps around the stadium (with a very upset screaming child) until he finally conked out. Success!

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He was in a much better mood after his nap and enjoyed Daddy telling him all about what was going on during the game.rainbow-1

After the game. Can you see the rainbow??

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Games with Nana on the way to the car (you can still see the rainbow!)

Here we are at Nick’s soccer tournament on Sunday.

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windyIt was so windy!

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The clouds were amazing!kathcollageEven Nana was impressed with the clouds.

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Picking daisies.

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Finally, there’s “Dadddddddy!”

Happy Snapshots

In the midst of all the sad, unfortunate and horrible things that occurred last week (Boston, West, TX, building collapse in Bangladesh), I decided to pick out and edit some of my favorite recent photos that make me happy. When I was feeling helpless about this insane world we live in and uneasy and scared about bringing another life into such a crazy world, I reflected on the things in my life that are good and happy and lovely.

Here are some of them.

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KIDDOS

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BABIES

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BATHTIME

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Things are changing

My face is twitching, my belly hurts and I just ate way more than my fair share of sweets – what is wrong with me? Oh that’s right, I’m pregnant! Yep, we got the slightly surprising news on a Thursday evening in February after I suffered all day with what would be my first day of 8 weeks of intense nausea. Right then, I knew. So to my trusty CVS store I headed for testing supplies.  The result was instantly this:

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This is the only time in my life when I can go a whole day with “weird” things happening to me or I actually do “weird” things and it doesn’t phase me. Pregnancy: a miracle of life and what women’s bodies are capable of, but also such an odd and peculiar experience when you get down to it.

Baby Spillane #2 is due on, ready for it…October 31st. Yes, that’s right, one day after Will’s 2nd birthday. Us Spillanes really love the month of October, and not only that, clearly the Halloween holiday! So, as of today, I’m 12 weeks and 6 days pregnant – hallelujah for the 2nd trimester!

The past 8 weeks have been pretty tough and gross. I found out I was pregnant because the nausea set in immediately and it came on extremely strong – daily vomiting and gagging were the norm. Generally feeling like death was an everyday thing for the first three weeks. It was horrible. Around week 10, things started to ease up a bit, but I would randomly have spells of total nausea and feeling like I could be sick at any moment at the slightest smell (or thought!) that didn’t sit well with me. Today, I’m feeling much better, but I do have a small sense of lingering nausea if I haven’t eaten anything substantial in more than an hour, if I’m dehydrated or if I think about feeling nauseous, so on that note, I’m changing the subject!

Here is Will proudly sporting his ‘Big Brother’ t-shirt a few weeks ago. He doesn’t quite get it yet, but I’m sure as my belly grows, it’ll start to make more sense to him.

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Oh yes, and this also means that the new job hunt is on hold… for about the next year. My goal was to be out of here by March, but clearly God had other plans for us – that’s OK, we’re happy with what he has in mind for our family!

 

March on!

It’s March!

The month of spring! The month of Easter! The month of snowstorms (usually). And, most exciting and important of them all, the month of my birth!

We have lots going on this month and hopefully, as I make yet another “commitment” to nurture and love this blog, I will be blogging about all of them. We have kitten-sitting, my beloved Aunt Ella’s memorial service, an Erin Express-style bachelorette party, my mom’s birthday, my birthday, our weekend away for my birthday, our niece Evie’s birthday, the impending arrival of Evie’s little brother, Good Friday BBQ and of course Easter. Phew. That’s a lot of stuff. I’m exhausted just typing this. But it is a blessing to be this busy and have so many things going on. I’m grateful for all of them – and am ready to take them all on – starting with kitten-sitting tomorrow.

Hank and Harriet, our feline niece and nephew (father is brother, Jamison), are home alone this weekend while their father goes gallivanting around Upstate NY on the back of a snow mobile with friends. So we’re checking in, giving some love and will anxiously watch as Will interacts with kitties much smaller than his “Owwiiiiiwwwerr & Odohhh” (that’s “Oliver & Opie” for us non-baby speaking people), praying that he doesn’t do permanent psychological damage to the furry babies.  It should be fun.

I would have to say that the thing I’m looking forward to the most is the weekend away for my birthday. This trip is sans William. Although I know we will both miss his little snuggle bug face dearly, it is something both Nick and I really need. I think the last time we spent a weekend together, alone, was for my birthday when I was pregnant with Will. That was two years ago. It’s time.

The location of this weekend away is still yet a mystery to me, as my mom is keeping it a secret from me (it’s a present from her – but she gave Nick the details since he’s the one driving). I don’t care where it is, as long as I get to sleep in, can pee/make myself something to eat without be tugged on and only have to dress one person for more than a day, I’m happy. Ahh, the little things…